Day One: Life

24 hours ago I was writing the introduction post. I told myself that keeping this blog would be a challenge, but it would make me a better person. There would of course be times where I would have trouble finding something positive to write about but over time it would become easier and I would learn more about myself. I just never expected to draw a blank on the first day.

I considered this project for a few days before committing myself to it. At the time there were ideas swimming around. Although I didn't have 40 topics to write about straight away, I did have some. Naturally when I need them they are not there. After what felt like hours of searching I found something.

Day 1: I love that I am alive
I know it seems like such an obvious one to start off with, but if I wasn't alive then I wouldn't be able to write this blog, study at university or spend time with various friends, family and poisonous reptiles. Given the way things have been turned upside down in the last month I am very grateful that I am still alive.

Imagine having the earth take away everything. Your home, your work place, loved ones, normality, everything. While I wasn't it Christchurch, New Zealand when the earth moved on Feb 22 2011, it was hard to avoid. It was all the news networks for days. New Zealand is such a small place it was difficult to find someone who wasn't affected by the earthquake in someway. Either with loved ones living down there or old homes torn apart by the force of the earth.

I can't imagine what an earthquake that size would be like. What it would feel like to lose everything or to even lose something. It wouldn't be like losing a pen or some coin from your pocket. I guess even though it doesn't feel like it, I am lucky to be where I am. I am safe, and I have people around me that love me.

Even though right now I don't have an attachment figure, and things may seem lonely and hard. I take for granted how precious life is. Not only to me but to those around me. I know being a Squeak can feel isolating, and there is no one there, but thinking back to the events of last week, I would be missed by so many people.

I love that I am alive and there is so much that I can experience.